"Unbelief is the subjective negation of a belief in Order, Beauty, Purpose, and Eternal Life. Unbelief is to Faith as Chaos is to Cosmos, as the Fire of Misery is to the Garden of Bliss."
Tsk tsk. Slacking, have we? One full bloody month without any new posts. And no single entry in my journal as well. As evident through my vile, squiggly scribble at a joke of an attempt in flawless penmanship.
Blink blink. 13 more days until the Holy month ends.
I am feeling that waning motivation already. Oh Lord. What a pitiful sight. Has not my heart illuminated at all with introspection? Or have false inner demons lingered too long, pushing me off into that dark abyss, forcing me to claw my way up all over again, battered and bloodied?
Lesson most severely learnt today from سورة ص today:
[from the commentary]: "Turn to Him in Prayer and Praise, for that is more than any worldly power or wisdom."
Bam. So my compass malfunctioned. The dunya is too much, and I only have yours truly to blame.
So much for donning the cloak of a vicegerent. Completely helpless and insignificant before Him.
With that, I sincerely beg Your forgiveness from this vile, flawed mortal coil. Mercy.
On another note: The Olympics have completely taken over most of my life. You know you overindulge when you have the Chinese national anthem on loop in your head for a few days. A quadrennial event is no reason to abandon the pen though. My apologies.
And...Bulgaria in 10 days. Say WHAT?
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