My only prayer right now, God - Please keep mom alive. Let her body, spirit and mind survive this. For mine cannot, if I lose her.

I have been purposely 'overdosing' myself in the past few nights.

I don't care what the consequences are at this point, I just want to sleep at night without crying and killing myself a little inside.

Oh Lord, you've taken away four people that I love in the last two years without me having the chance to say goodbye.

Don't take my mother away from me too. Let her survive this calamity safe and sound.

Even if it means taking my life in return I would gladly welcome it. Just keep her alive.

I am always surprised to find myself still alive and breathing when I wake up in the morning.

:X